-Deep Inhale-

-Exhilarating exhale-   Hello, SuperForest. Good to be here again, as I still am, thank Love. The first post I ever made on this site I made in 2010 before I was an adult. I’m twenty years old now. I have depression. I’m angry, and tired, and if you go through all of my posts you see that manifesting slowly and slowly before you’ll notice I just stopped writing here. Angrily. Being angry and hateful is not fun, to say the absolute least about it. Trying to outrun a mental illness is impossible as it is unforgiving. But I am. I am, after all, a superhero. I knew I used to be happy and I used to be someone who was full of light and full of love and gosh darn it that does NOT just disappear. But it was hidden for a while, and it’s still a mighty fight to try and find it again. But today I did, and it was with your help, everyone. The site’s help, the people’s help, and just a little help from The Flaming Lips. As I get older I find authors and artists and bands and being a left-brained ding-a-ling, I tend to let and encourage art to be a enormous part of my personal development. So I found The Flaming Lips, and they’re rad. And they made a song, I’ll let you look it up, but the song is called “What Is the Light?” The full title, actually, is “What Is the Light?” (“An Untested Hypothesis Suggesting That the Chemical [In Our Brains] by Which We Are Able to Experience the Sensation of Being in Love Is the Same Chemical That Caused the “Big Bang” That Was the Birth of the Accelerating Universe)” Read that and know it, and when you know it, maybe it might just make sense. I don’t believe in God. I do believe in Love. As an energy. And in a way all believers or non believers know this thing of love, and that is the true essence of what it is they believe in and praise. Love, in the form of X Y or Z. Christ, Vishnu, Satan, Zeus, Trees, Joe Pesci, I don’t even care (I do.) The point is… All we ever do that we enjoy doing, we do out of love. Love is our drive. Love is that which keeps us going, LITERALLY. Love of food makes us eat. You say its the sensation of hunger? I say there is an untested hypothesis suggesting that the chemical in our brains by which we are able to experience the sensation of being in love is the same chemical which, in its absence, gives us the feeling of being hungry. So yeah. We eat because we’re hungry but people ignore the Love aspect of that. We get hungry…because we love to eat. If we, our bodies, didn’t love to eat, we wouldn’t ever be hungry. Love is craving and giving, love is drive. Forgive me, I’m very tired as I write this very complicated concept. What I want to convey to everyone, and to begin…No, CONTINUE doing from a point I left off on is to love everything. No, no. Seriously. Love everything. No, I’m SERIOUS. Love EVERYTHING. Everything in your life, love it, even a little teeny tiny bit because I can guarantee you there is indeed something to love about everything in life. Don’t go throwing examples at me because hey, I’m just crawling out of a loveless pit here, but I know it. We do what we do out of love. The more we love, the more we do. I’m not being light on the mayo here, I’m not just saying “find something positive” in everything in your life, no, I’m saying love it. People tell me if we were to do this, love would lose its value and oh my Love, just TYPING that made me nauseous because the very concept of love losing its value is almost absurd enough to make it funny enough to make me want to puke. Perhaps this is only a message to myself, reminding me that I need to Love more things more deeply than I do, but hey, just like that ceiling tile in my old high school, someone will find this. And start a path.

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